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Another chapter has ended

Its been a few months since my last blog which is purely down to my workload, which is ridiculous at best! But hey-ho, it keeps me out of trouble so that must be a good thing!?

I hadn’t seen my key-worker from Addaction for some while, I think it may have been before Christmas, so I went into bloody shock when she rang me the other week to say she was leaving in one months time. I know now I’m strong enough to say NO, and mean it, to drugs. But the sense of abandonment overwhelmed me once again, and I think that it what I struggle the most with.

I rushed down to see her one last time. We had a laugh, we always do. Especially when she laughs at my jokes – half of them are crap! :).

I will deeply miss her as I class her as a friend, a true friend.

I lay there all weekend, with her photo clutched tightly to my chest, listening to Celine Dion songs, crying with loads of snot running down my lip……I’m joking, I’m joking – Jeeeeeeeeeeeeezzz

Anyway, can’t think of much else to report so see you all soon, I’m outie!

3 comments - First published on: 19/03/2010

A helping hand

Well, I’m 16 days into the New Year and I honestly have not lost my temper once! Which is a bloody miracle to all those that know me!

I haven’t purposely set out with the mindset of don’t upset people and the usual rubbish that goes with it. I am just trying to take a step back and not react immediately – which for now seems to be working.

I still, and I guess I always will, struggle with people’s attitudes to life and how they find it completely OK to brush past people in life with complete disregard.

I was at the train station the other night waiting to go to work and, as usual, just before the train was pulling in they announced a platform change. Now this change was back up two flights of stairs, across the bridge and back down two flights.

As usual everyone for themselves, running and shoving each other to guarantee themselves a seat. By the time I got to the top I turned to see a women struggling with a suitcase big enough to carry a body in. So I ran back down and offered to carry it for her. Up two flights, across the bridge and down two flights. Which in turn made me miss the train!

She thanked me and I told her not to worry. A small piece of satisfaction for myself for being able to help someone.

My point being I have done a lot of bad things in life, a lot of things I am not proud of – but I never have – and never will walk past someone who is in need of help no matter how trivial.

How do these people sleep at night? What else would they turn their backs on? Is it a case of “I’m OK Jack, so screw you?”.

Sad,sad world.

10 comments - First published on: 16/01/2010

And a Happy New Year to you all

Just finally recovered from a hectic New Year’s Day which saw me rise at 5.30 am to head down to the residential home my mum works at – and cook 25 breakfasts and wash up, followed by tea and biscuits for all, then topped with 25 turkey dinners that would of had the gods themselves dribbling over!

Now I didn’t mind doing all this, in fact it was – as usual – very humbling, and also extremely satisfying. But I wasn’t best pleased about having to clean up as well, and wash the floor!

Still – a good start to the new year!

5 comments - First published on: 02/01/2010

Spare a thought for others this Christmas

This time of year for some reason really brings out the “emotional” side of me (for want of a better word). Really makes me reflect upon past situations and also what the future holds.

Every Christmas morning it’s the same routine, we get up, have breakie and open pressies, but I just cant enjoy it as I’m always thinking of others less fortunate than myself.

I usually go down to the old peoples home where my mum works and cook them breakfast and lunch, but my mum isnt working this Christmas day so I’m going to go down on New Years Day and help out then.

Anything, no matter how small, a random act of kindess can be such a massive impact on folks life especially this time of year, so lets try and help at least one person this Christmas!

Have a great xmas

5 comments - First published on: 23/12/2009