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Salvation

How have I let myself get in this state?,
A twisted affliction, addiction, mistake,

No morals, no feelings, no emotion, just greed,
No time for integrity with an addiction to feed,

A life full of nothing, and with nothing for life,
just a day by day struggle to reach the next high,

No morals, no feelings, no emotion, just greed,
No time for integrity with an addiction to feed,

Each day the same outcome when I have promised to quit,
Awaking, to the aching, of my body in bits,

No morals, no feelings, no emotion just greed,
No time for integrity with an addiction to feed,

I will do, I need to, I want to break free,
I choose life not the addiction that’s been ruling me.

Comments

Hi Benx – good to hear from you and Happy New Year – this is powerful stuff.

By Michaela on 04/01/2010 at 7:27 AM - .(JavaScript must be enabled to view this email address)

I really identified with the repeated verse about loss of values. That was my experience too.

By PeaPod on 04/01/2010 at 11:09 AM - .(JavaScript must be enabled to view this email address)

Thanks for the feedback, i wrote this poem when i was in rehab.

I found writing a great help to me when i was in the early stages of recovery,i never spoke about my feelings when i was on the gear so it was a relief to be able to release some of emotion i was bottling up inside.

I find the guilt is the most difficult thing to get over,i still feel guilty about my actions,others have forgiven me but i still need to be able to forgive myself.

By benx on 04/01/2010 at 1:15 PM - .(JavaScript must be enabled to view this email address)

Reminds me, and helps me understand. Many thanks.

By Geph on 04/01/2010 at 1:58 PM - .(JavaScript must be enabled to view this email address)

I love this Ben

‘no morals, no feelings’ – can definately relate to that. In fact one of the most rewarding aspects of my own personal recovery is that my life now contains values. I may not always make the right decisions or say the right thing, but at least i now feel true to myself. My life has some integrity.

Thanks again

By charlie cooke on 04/01/2010 at 2:10 PM - .(JavaScript must be enabled to view this email address)

Looking forward to hearing what action you are taking to break free and choose life.

By Mark Gilman on 04/01/2010 at 7:20 PM - .(JavaScript must be enabled to view this email address)

Nice one Benx, a good expression. We all look forward to hearing about the life you have chosen :-)

By Sarah Davies on 04/01/2010 at 7:27 PM - .(JavaScript must be enabled to view this email address)

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First published on
04/01/2010
Last updated on
04/01/2010

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