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Things are good for me. I am feeling good, I feel alive.
My last blog spoke about my brother-in-law’s death. At the moment I am visiting at my mothers in England. It was his funeral on Thursday and everything went as well as it could.
I came here last Tuesday, and it’s been a very good thing for me and my recovery. I’ve found out I can get through anything without having to use. I had a few times where the thought of using slipped into my thoughts, but they were instant thoughts that went just as quickly as they came.
I was told, and see now, that a gift I have been given is that I no longer add to the chaos that is in my family. I can stand back and see what is happening. And if I don’t add to it its been a good day.
My sister is really not doing great. She is still drinking and her weight is down to 6.4. She is in constant contact with the community mental health team, they are visiting one day and phoning the next. They have medicated her to get her through and want her to go to detox and then on to a place she can get help.
She has an appointment on Monday and decisions will be made then. I hope she chooses to live. I’m really not sure she wants to yet, she is 30 and seems to have no desire to carry on.
I have listened to her and passed on stuff I have learned, but I cannot get her sober and healthy. She has to choose to do that. It hurts seeing her like this, but I have accepted she has to decide. It has eased the pain a lot of seeing her like this.
Not sure where this blog was meant to go. But it feels good to be in recovery today….
Hey Louis, good to hear from you and to feel the positivity coming through your blog.
It’s weird, but after editing for a while you end up having a sense of where people are at from how they write. It’s not the words really, could be the way that the words go together, I am honestly not sure. But it is really good!
I’m proud of you.
Yep Louis I am proud too. Stay strong and dont let the chaos contaminate you, its great to hear you being so positive, your experience and strength shine through.
Not adding to the chaos, that’s priceless, there’s some bitter truths in your blog, thanks for reminding me of a good choice I made.
Thanks folks
It was nice getting your comments…
I heard this afternoon.. my sister is being taken into hospital… i dont know what sort of treatment yet… but its a positive move for her…
Im travelling back up from England… one train was late so i have missed all my connection times… never mind.. there is a rainbow out the train window… i wonder if there is a pot of gold at the end of it!!!
Hey ho… im heading home… HOME… this from the person afraid of commitment… i have a home…
Im gonna finish before i jinx it :o)
Hope you all have a beautiful day
